March on

I downloaded a sleep recording app for my phone, to record my snoring. I know I snore some from having two sleep tests done during the early years of my depression to sleep if my exhaustion was being caused by sleep issues. Those tests both came back with some snoring, but no real issues. Anyway, I wanted to get at least some idea of how much I snore versus how I feel the next day.

There is some definite correlation, I am more tired and more anxious when I snore more. But it's not a one to one correlation. For instance today I felt bad, at one point getting near panic attack despite my taking a Xanax earlier today.

Also quite tired today, and according to the sleep app I didn't snore very much, less than 5% of the night. On the positive side, I got out and went to the bank to deposit a check, went and put gas in my car, went to the pharmacy twice (once to drop off my prescription, once later to pick up since the wait was going to be 30+ minutes when I dropped off), dealt with the dryer repair person who was here to repair my dryer (the dryer has been broken for 2+ months, I kept meaning to call him but would never get around to it, and I could hang my clothes in my house to dry them), and have done about 12-14 flights of stairs today with all my trips out of the house and to do laundry (it's in the basement and I live on the second floor) now that I have a working dryer I can use to wash and dry large things like comforters. As you can guess, I'm writing these all down so I can tell myself how much I got accomplished today despite being very tired. It's just past 6pm, and I want to go to bed already.

The weather is starting to warm up, finally. So tired of the cold and snow. My weight went up over the winter. I tried to keep my step count on my phone app up, but it's harder in the winter when it's so cold you don't want to step outside. Also hard to get walking in when I'm tired and anxious. Hopefully spring and summer will let me lose it.

I bought myself some new work clothes yesterday, online so I didn't have to go out to the stores and be limited by the few things they have in my size (I'm tall, and those extra winter pounds didn't help). There's so little I like in stores for so long that comes in my size that it's just much easier to shop online. If I  find one thing I like well enough, I tend to just buy several of them in different colors. I needed some new work clothes, I've been wearing the same few things for a year.

Another good thing to write down here: I did not need to take any days off this past year due to depression/anxiety. Oh I certainly wanted to, but forced myself through with the help of Xanax when I felt like I was going to have a panic attack. Having an office with a door helps a lot some days. Because of the nature of my contract work, I used some of my vacation days to match the clients vacation days, and I was even able to use my two remaining days for a few days off in February. I didn't go anywhere or do anything, it was far too cold for that, but the important thing is I was able to take some days off because I didn't have to use them all up for depression/anxiety.