Cleaning to help the mind

After two weeks of anxiety, and just getting through the day as best I could, the past two nights have been spent tossing and turning and spending a few hours awake. Friday and yesterday I was nauseous, and yesterday I took a nap.

Today I did a few things to benefit myself. First was not eat that leftover pizza for lunch. Spicy pizza, probably not good for my stomach. My diet had been fairly poor for the past few weeks because I have lacked the energy to cook properly or even to get healthier foods for lunch at work some days. Instead of the leftover pizza I had mac and cheese on steamed veggies. The veggies at least are healthier, and the mac and cheese was at least organic and not full of chemical stuff.

I also decided I needed to do something about the messy state of my house and did some cleaning That way I can look at something in the house and say "That's done, I did something to benefit myself". I cleaned the top of the oven, the kitchen sink, did some sweeping, cleaned up stuff from my desk, and cleaned the bathroom some. That's enough for now, tired. The main things I deal with in the house are reasonably clean. I had been looking at the messy state they were in and it was sending a message to myself that I was just existing and letting things go. Even though it's a household chore, now I have a sense of having done something positive for myself. I feel somewhat better. Here's hoping the feeling stays.