After four nights of poor quality sleep, tossing and turning, waking up at 4am unable to fall back asleep, I was in a bad state yesterday. I took a Xanax in the evening, my first in six or seven days, it calmed me down. I did finally have some dreams last night, but I was dreaming I was at some kind of camp, but I was the only one there, there was no food, and I was going to have to walk miles to get anywhere to get food. That was not a comforting dream.
Last night I also slept oddly on my side, and my left side hurts enough to interfere with my breathing. Pain in the chest area and the breathing is not good for my anxiety. I considered calling in sick, but I'm going to stick with it and go to work.
On the other hand the weather is now above freezing, so all the snow is melting. This should be good, but instead since the weather's warmed up I've been miserable.
Thursday I have to wrangle my cats into their carrier to take them to the vet to have their teeth cleaned. Saturday I have to take my car in to the dealer for a recall, and I know the service is going to be about two hours. Both things are on my anxiety causing list, as in doing them has caused anxiety before. With the way I feel today I am not looking forward to this week. One day at a time. It can be easier to tell myself this than do it.
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