Did not sleep well again.

Did not sleep well again. Lay down at around 8pm yesterday, but just lay there probably until 10. Lights were on again, until 4am. Got up then for an hour, back to bed at 5. A "hard sleep" until 6, that's not deep, but by body saying "sleep now!" and curling up tightly. Just exhausted, thinking I don't have energy. That's my normal negative thinking spiral.

Got up again and took a hot shower. Those are good for making me feel better. For now (7am) just sitting in my chair with a blanket keeping me nice and toasty. It's still very windy from overnight. My therapist appointment is at 10. I'm listening to the radio via the internet, and the picture of the singer currently playing makes me laugh. -->

I think I like the light on because it feels lonely lying in bed in the dark not falling asleep. With the light on it's more "resting" than "trying to sleep".