I managed to avoid having a panic attack at the funeral by focusing on my breathing. It was difficult, as I had all the symptoms of heading into one, the feeling of tiredness, lightheadedness, the desire to head for the exit. The funeral lasted for only about 20-25 minutes. I'm not sure how much longer I would have been able to take, since I was forcing myself the entire time.
But still I managed to do it. I sat in the back near the door, just in case. The location of the funeral was about 45 minutes away from my home, in a place I was unfamiliar with, and lots of people there. Being in a dress shirt, a not so comfortable chair (those types of chairs never are) and it feeling very warm didn't help, the warmth could have just been my anxiety. I was fidgeting and not sitting properly the entire time. I focused on telling myself to breathe, I wasn't the focus, I only had to be present, and I could leave as soon as it was done.
I'm glad I was able to be there for my friend. He was the reason I went even though I expected to have a panic attack. Im also glad for myself that I was able to participate in the world. After the airport at Christmas I felt as if I was now totally unable to do that.
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ReplyDeleteThis worked for me. It's free too. Good luck, Bud!
Thanks. I've done cognitive behavioral therapy in the past. It's helped. I'll give those a try. I'm always worse in the winter months despite having the seasonal disorder lights. My work is fine, but this leaves me very little energy for modding nwn2.
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