Was able to get myself to the airport and to the gate, but just couldn't do it. Big time anxiety. Talked with an airline agent and got a ride being pushed in a wheelchair back out to my car. I felt terrible. I could barely walk from the anxiety. Called the family and told them I wasn't going to be able to be there. I feel terrible about that. I wanted to cry. And right now I just feel terrible in general.
I still want to cry. I'm so frustrated. I'd wanted to show myself that I could do it. Now what? This is a low point, it leaves me wondering how I'm going to take on other things.
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This is a very touching post. I had a similar thing on Christmas 2010, I wasn't able to make it even to the train station. One of the lowest points for me and the day I decided I need to go on a different kind of vacation...
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