We'll see how it hurts

I did 50 minutes of ping pong today. That's 10 more than I've done at one time since I started. We'll see how my body reacts later.

Did the right thing

I went to bed early last night, and slept fine. So why am I more tired today than yesterday? Probably because it's the fifth or sixth time the mortgage company has said "this is the last set of documents we need to finish your refinance". I'm not even kidding, two document requests this week have been with that exact language. For the past two month I have been providing them every document they require, only to have them make new requests for different documents. You would think my excellent credit and a clean payment history on the mortgage would be enough.

Hopefully that's the case here

The result of having to sleep in a more upright position was a night spent in a series of naps and being unable to get into a really comfortable position. As a result I'm up early and my stomach is upset (that happens when I don't get enough sleep). When I feel like this on workdays I don't usually start feeling better until the afternoon, but generally have more energy than I expect considering the way I feel to start the day. Hopefully that's the case here.

Bit of vertigo

I can get it when I'm very tired. Time to go to bed.

edit: enough to wake me up. Positional vertigo, worse when lying down, so positional. A few years ago I was diagnosed with benign positional vertigo. Today seems to be milder than when I initially had it. I've had mild bouts before. I may have to sleep sitting up tonight. It's upsetting and annoying, and strongly gets my anxiety going.

Not much sleep

There was a storm overnight. It was strong enough to rattle the windows, which I tried unsuccessfully to stop by jamming a sock in them to cushion things. That didn't work, so I moved to another room, but there the noise from the wind blown rain of the roof was enough I didn't sleep much better.

Eating out

Eating out is stressful for me. The waiting for the food is no fun. I will actually walk back out if there's a wait to be seated. Once the food arrives I can calm down some and concentrate on that. I try to get out of there quickly when I'm done.

Anyway, this post is from a Vietnamese pho restaurant. I went right after work, so no crowd yet.

Add: somehow that didn't post from my phone when I hit post yesterday. I had a "Vietnamese coffee" with the dinner. A small coffee with thick milk. Didn't sleep great as a result, woke up a couple times. Was relaxed and not anxious during the night though. Had a chai on my trip the the farmers market this morning. Kind of early to bed to bed to make up for it.

Extra note: I went to Wendy's and got a burger at the drive through for lunch today. It didnt really agree with my stomach, I think I've been eating good for me food too much to have a fast food burger.

Awake at midnight

One of my cats has been going crazy for the past hour. Running around, meowing nonstop.

Another note: I normally dream in full color with complete detail. It makes my dreams non-restful if anything's going on in them, which they've been since I went to bed tonight.

Did pretty well today

When I don't post for a few days, it's usually because I'm feeling relatively better.

Today I managed a busy morning, including having some high priority work stuff when I normally take my lunch (I take it earlier than most people at my company, as soon as the employee cafeteria opens for lunch). The past few months I'd been needing to go for lunch right when it starts due to anxiety. But today I did ok.

By the end of the day I was pretty beat though. Got some sudden priority stuff done right before close for the day. Tired when I got home, watched my local basketball team on the tv.

Overall, I'd mark today in the success column.

30 minutes of exercise

Did my ping pong at 6:30. Felt good at the time. Now it feels like I overdid things eventhougb didn't play especially hard. Maybe it's the torso twisting motions of playing that move my ribcage in a way my shoulder/ribcage problem doesn't like. It doesn't hurt, I just feel uncomfortable. Maybe it's the two large teas I had at lunch/afternoon. I wonder how much caffeine is in those, and if it'd be wearing off around now. I went to bed a few hours ago, and woke up feeling just "not right". Muscles don't hurt, bones don't ache, just an "overdid it somehow" feeling.

Edit: that was around midnight. Continuing with the "not right" feeling, but less. Lots of things back to back at work today, don't feel so rested even though I was in bed around 9 last night and up at 6:30 (then hit the alarm for another 30 minutes of not really sleeping).

I should try switching the tea for water and try some walking or something instead of ping pong.

Stone is gone

My kidney stone apparently took care of itself. I gave myself some extra sleep this morning by hitting the snooze for another 30 minutes. Didn't really seem to help all that much, Ive been ready for more sleep since about 8:30.

Kidney stone

I couldn't fall asleep last night. I was exhausted (I did get 30 minutes of exercise yesterday) and climbed into bed at 9, tossed and turned until at least 10:30. Woke up several time with the distinct pains of a kidney stone, which I have had periodically over the past dozen years. My stones are always very small, so I just grimaced, took an Aleve and bore the pain until falling back asleep. Woke up at 5:30 and couldn't fall back asleep. The stone seems to have moved, pain was gone. Today will not be fun, hopefully the lack of sleep fog shakes off.

Slept right through

Disturbing dreams though. Dreamt tornadoes and storms were destroying the whole world, and that ultimately they were coming for me. After running from them for a long time, I stood up to the worst tornado, successfully. I am exhausted. My alarm barely got me out of bed. I normally wake up shortly before the alarm.

My office at work is sleepily warm today. It's the first hour of the workday and I've already felt myself heading for nodding off once. Since doctors advice was no caffeine because of anxiety, I have an ice cold water first thing at work every morning.

Last night after work I had to stop at a bank to take care of divorce related stuff. I felt my anxiety rising, but was able to keep it under control and not have an attack.

Work has started again

I'd been naturally waking up around 8-8:30 without an alarm during the vacation. Is it any wonder I'm tired now? I didn't sleep well last night either, waking up a number of times. Very tired and want to nod off, hope I can get a short power nap at lunch.

Ping pong starts again tonight after being closed for Christmas.