What better place to have an anxiety attack?

Saw the doctor a few weeks ago. I've been putting on weight because of not eating well. My cholesterol and blood pressure were up.... now I get to have a cardiac stress test on Wednesday. Not looking forward to that as it's at the medical center in the middle of the building, in a place I haven't been before. At least my doctor's office is right inside the door of the building. Plus there's the test itself, 10 minutes of increasing resistance on a treadmill. I've been doing 10 minutes of wii fitness running in place pretty regularly, and 15 minute sessions sweeping the falls leaves (of which there are plenty), but the test still makes me anxious. I guess if I have a panic attack my heart-rate will already be high and they can use that?

At least I've lost eight pounds in five weeks since seeing my doctor on the 5:2 fasting diet + eating better in general (no donut Tuesday and no weekend frappucinos). Fasting days are not fun, but it's been working. I have to go back in to the doctor in another month or so, for another blood test and follow up. Since the 5:2 diet is supposed to be good for cholesterol and blood pressure, I am hopeful. Seeing the scale steadily show lower numbers is helping me mentally. With the dieting I feel "healthier", because I knew I wasn't eating very well. The weight loss is positive feedback for the "healthy" feeling. I still have quite a ways to go to get back to what my body's "normal" weight is, normal being what I weighed for a number of years before the depression/anxiety..

Right now getting through the cardiac stress test Wednesday and back home is the main thing on my mind. I have the anticipatory anxiety over the test. Which really I shouldn't. I mean if I'm going to have an anxiety attack what better place to have one than at a medical center while being monitored?

Here's my attempt to be more focused on things that stress me less....

There are other things going on, working with lawyers to form an LLC, trying to get financing to buy an apartment building (in that LLC) with my inheritance, etc. These are things I try not to let bother me. There's the usual work stuff, I try not to let that get to me either.

Outside of those I'm not doing too much. Working some on my hobby project on the weekends. I've sat out with the new neighbors on their porch and chatted a couple of times, once for 90 minutes or so even!  I was tired the whole time but I did it. That's the most socializing I've done in some time, it was made easier since it was the neighbor right next to my house. Haven't been feeling up to hanging out with anyone otherwise, even my best friend. I went and hung out with him one day and watched some football, but I was like 3/4 asleep that day and left at when the game was half over.