Saturday I was well enough to get some groceries at the actual grocery store instead of ordering grocery delivery from online.Not many, as I didn't want to push too far. I managed to mow the lawn as well. The past two days though I've been so tired I can barely get around the house. I had to stop washing the dishes (at least I called the handyman to fix that and the roof shingles Saturday) as I felt like I could barely stand anymore. I laid down and took a nap. I am very tense, I think it's giving me the headache that I had yesterday and today. I have been taking a xanax (or two) a day during the week, and trying to stay off on the weekend.
There is tension because last week was busy at work, to the point that Friday was multiple "need it now" crises and I was working until 8pm or so, getting a call on the way home and having to work remotely on it. I had a panic attack at work near the end of the day, I did manage to control it as I saw it coming.
Today is a holiday, so I was able to nap. I had planned on taking Tuesday as a vacation day to take care of some stuff for my father, but I have to go in for the remaining "need it now" work issue.
I still haven't looked at more than a few of the photos in the box of photos and stuff my family sent that my dad had. I lack the energy/desire, probably as a reaction to his passing.
The rest of the day looks like it's going to be an exercise in putting one foot in front of each other. Let's hope tomorrow brings more energy.
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