Yesterday I did ok. Did my trip to the local farmers market and bought some groceries. Worked some on my hobby project. Went to bed right around 9pm. This morning I slept in until nearly 8am. And yet so tired I had to take a nap this afternoon. Even getting my laundry done was an effort. Didn't go to ping pong today because my shoulder was really bothering me. I've had the special type of pain I get from kidney stones for the past few days as well. Couldn't concentrate today for my hobby project. Just stared at it for a while and put it away.
"Taking it a day at a time" is only getting me so far. It helps rob me of any joy from looking forward to anything, because I'm mostly just trying to get through the day, especially workdays. I'm "in the moment", and it's a exhausted depressed moment. But I can't think of anything to look forward to either. A day off work? It's not as if I want to go for a vacation. Of course flying for a vacation seems right out after my experience at the airport at Christmas. Driving for one sounds terrible as well. And even if I did I have to sleep/nap enough that I couldn't really do anything.
Yeah, I'm depressed. Taking my meds though, hopefully things will brighten up.
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