Couldn't fall asleep

It took me at least an hour to fall asleep last night, was slightly dizzy (a possible side effect of my medication). Woke up sometime during the night and could fall back asleep. I was stuck in a half sleep, thinking about something. I do remember whatever it was that my brain was fixated on wasn't actually important, it was something dumb like who the local basketball team drafted last night. As a result today I'm very tired. At least the weekend starts tonight. Wednesday I did get in 30 minutes of ping pong. I'd skipped two sessions.

Refill

Quarter after 8 in the morning. At work but brains in a fog and I really want to have a nap. Feeling like this just makes me feel worse. I think my brain is still half asleep, at least it feels like it. I have a lull in my work right now and am supposed to take some online training, but the training system is down. Refilled my meds yesterday. Hope they help soon, it doesn't feel like it so far. I'd been forgetting to take them, and so I started back up last week. I also put them out with my vitamins so I see them. It takes up to a month to build up in people, so it could still be a while before I notice a difference. Until then I have to persevere. Still feeling the dilemma of trying to get through the day versus inability to look forward in anticipation.

Had to nap

Yesterday I did ok. Did my trip to the local farmers market and bought some groceries. Worked some on my hobby project. Went to bed right around 9pm. This morning I slept in until nearly 8am. And yet so tired I had to take a nap this afternoon. Even getting my laundry done was an effort. Didn't go to ping pong today because my shoulder was really bothering me. I've had the special type of pain I get from kidney stones for the past few days as well. Couldn't concentrate today for my hobby project. Just stared at it for a while and put it away.

"Taking it a day at a time" is only getting me so far. It helps rob me of any joy from looking forward to anything, because I'm mostly just trying to get through the day, especially workdays. I'm "in the moment", and it's a exhausted depressed moment. But I can't think of anything to look forward to either. A day off work? It's not as if I want to go for a vacation. Of course flying for a vacation seems right out after my experience at the airport at Christmas. Driving for one sounds terrible as well. And even if I did I have to sleep/nap enough that I couldn't really do anything.

Yeah, I'm depressed. Taking my meds though, hopefully things will brighten up.

No energy today either

Napped at lunch. I did go to Five Guys and pick up a burger on the way home, in order to do something enjoyable for myself instead of work -> home -> sleep -> work. The burger was good. I am tired.

An hour a day

This week has been tough. I have had very little energy, maybe an hours worth a day. I slept well last night but was very quickly tired at work and trying to stay awake. At least I didn't have a ton of work today. Napped at my lunch hour every day this week, and even with that havnt had energy in the evenings. Just wanting sleep, and so tired during the day.

Feel like crap

Went to bed shortly before 10. Woke up at 11:20, 12:30, 2:30, 4:15, 5:45, and four or five times between then and 6:30. Some nausea I guess, just not feeling well. Will drag myself in to work and hope I feel better there. Think positive.

Did get 40 minutes or so of ping pong yesterday. Didn't work too hard because my opponent wasn't at my level, so I mostly helped her practice. Hadn't felt like going to ping pong but went anyway.

Tired today

I did get out to the farmers market and got some shopping done. But very tired today. Went out and got a gyro for lunch, so tired at the gyro place, thought I might have a panic attack there trying to stay awake. No panic attack, but very tired. I thought I slept well last night. I did get something fixed for my hobby project, so I don't feel totally unproductive for the day.

Like crap this morning

I'd been feeling ok since my last post. Don't know why but I feel like crap this morning. My ribs hurt from ping pong yesterday. That's not too bad, I've taken some Alleve. I've got a vague "getting a cold" taste in my mouth. And not hungry this morning. Brain's pretty foggy even though I felt like I got a decent night's sleep. Feel like calling off work, but will drag myself in. I've got an intern in with me today. I can make him do some of the work today, but it means I won't be able to nap for my lunch hour.

Ok weekend

I wasn't too tired to put in good work on my hobby project, so I got a fair number of things fixed. Got in 40 minutes or so of ping pong today, despite being tired today. At least today it wasn't the terribly tired I've been having on Sundays. Friday I was super tired though, slept at my lunch hour. I've been waking up 2-3 times a night.

I'd like to say I've been able to do much beyond take things a day at a time, but I really haven't. Especially during the week. Friday night and Saturday are always a bit better.