Still waiting for a good nights sleep

Felt ok yesterday morning, got out for a 15 minute walk at lunch. Took a nap after tha and felt exhausted the rest of the day. Put myself to bed shortly after 8, but slept the whole night in one hour chunks. Around 4 I got up and showered and moved to a chair where I napped away the rest of the night, also waking regularly, so just came in to work early. I don't really mind coming in early if I'm already awake, it means I can leave early, and my current job responsibilities are about getting the work done rather than needing to do it 8-5.

Working on the CBT, still trying to retrain the negative thinking and keep it normal.

Sunday was really the only good sleep I've gotten in a while. This weekend is a three day weekend, so I'm hoping to get a couple nights in a row of good sleep.

Fall is coming, so it's time to get out the SAD light and start banking "sunshine" for the winter.

Ping pong tonight, havnt missed a session since maybe March. Twice a week for 20-60 minutes, working up a positive sweat every time.

Moving through the week

Tueay I was pretty miserable even though I felt like I'd had some decent sleep. Wednesday was not bad, but I took a nap over lunch hour. Got in my excercise with about 30 minutes of ping pong. Pretty beat after, but felt I got in a good of exercise and had enough sweat to show for it.

There was a big storm last night. And while it didn't wake me up I'm not sure I got a good night's sleep. Tired, lunch hour nap probably. Sometimes when I'm tired I have my vertigo, which I have a bit of today. Grr.

No anxiety attacks since the last one I wrote about.

Still tired

Have not slept well since last week. Saturday night I was awake from 2-3:30 or so, and this morning woke up at 5 and couldn't relax enough to get back to sleep. My stomach was upset from the early wakeup, which didn't help. Came in to work early since I was already up. Hopefully good sleep is in my near future, I've always suffered if I don't get a good nights sleep, much less 4-5 in a row. I can't think of any particular reason for the bad sleep, the work stress of last week was resolved, the re-tiling is done, etc. Only thing remaining is my persistent shoulder injury.

Tired today

I guess I didn't sleep very well last night as I'm tired today. Napped a bit over lunch hour. I'd calmed down by Wednesday over Mondays stuff, and yesterday was a low stress workday. The contractor re-tiling the stairs is taking longer than anticipated, butwhen I was off Wednesday it was clear he was working the whole time. That should be finished today. The need/desire to re-tile them had been on my mind for at least a year. It makes that part of the house look much nicer.

Messed up

While solving someones computer problem for work on Friday I had to back up the computer and start all over. Except the backup turned out to miss a bunch of things (only all the important things). I feel absolutely terrible. My fingers are crossed the file recovery utility can save them. The guy is not going to be happy about that if it can't. Yes, I understand it happens and everyone makes mistakes, doesn't make me feel less bad. Definitely my fault. The only time I can remember doing this, but wrong person to make the mistake with. Reminding myself as I typeto try not to stew over this like I can do.

Also had two other priority "need it now!!!" issues today, one getting attention from my manager. Those are resolved. For a while I had all three going at once. Work is very high on the anxiety scale today. Have not had a panic attack, though in the spare bits in between the other things was thinking I wouldn't be surprised if I did. Going to go home and play with my cats and maybe try some meditation.

Was feeling positive about 40 minutes of ping pong yesterday. Played more actual competitive games than I have since starting with the club last year.

Good weekend

Good and productive yesterday and today.

Down day

Not having a great go of things today. Quite tired despite 8 hours of sleep. One cat woke me up in the night, with it's snoring! Monday was actually my best day this week despite getting terrible sleep the night before (I even wound up trying to sleep in a chair to get some sleep). Also ATT screwed up my internet, so I'll have no Internet at home until a week from now, thanks ATT! Trying to stay strong, definitely need to remind myself of negative thoughts on depression and energy today so they don't dwell.

Ping pong is tonight. I will be going whether I feel like it or not. Work has been very busy with the new responsibilities, I don't look forward to it and am glad when the workday is done. Building new computers for people is fine, but the data transfers have been full of unanticipated errors. Toughing it out, I need to be working.

Home and house stuff has been under control. Lawn is mowed, floors are recently swept, bathroom is cleaned and kitchen is normal. I'm having the old and in places broken tile on a staircase replaced next week.

I've been trying to lose weight. I have been stuck for about a month now as the weight loss plateaued. Lost 15 pounds from when I started a few months ago. Hoping the steady losses start back up, I need to lose another 15 or so to get back to what I'd been steady at for years. I could use another 15 on top of that, but let's get back to my regular weight first.