Interview

Went for a job interview today. No special panic, just the normal anxiety of someone interviewing I think.

Good day

30 minutes of ping pong, and 4 trips to the market for stuff.

acupuncture and a drive

Had my acupuncture today. After that I drove down to where I am having an interview on Monday. The idea was to lessen the anxiety since I'd know where the place is.

coffee crash

Went out for coffee this morning. It wore off as I was shoveling snow in the driveway to get some exercise. Ate some trail mix to perk up the energy.

therapist

Went to my therapist yesterday. And later went out and walked for 15 minutes in the mall. Then yesterday evening wound up needing to go out to the mall again (to actually buy something) and another store.

out twice

Yesterday I spent about 90 minutes at the mall. Walked the mall and spent the rest of the time in the food court area watching tv in the "lounge".

Today I went to the local farmers market for 20 minutes or so, and later went to the Museum of Art for 30 or so.

Trip downtown and lunch out

Went downtown for something. Had a good enough walk to get to where I needed to go. Panic levels were bearable. Went out for lunch at a restaurant afterwards.

Interview

My hobby project has produced an interview, which I had today via computer chat. Took a nap after lunch despite a coffee this morning. Didn't feel the caffeine until later (feeling it now).

Tired today as well

But I am getting out for more things.

Tired today

Didn't get very good sleep, with the caffeine and snowplows etc. Took a nap this morning and feeling better. Went out and got the screw I needed to fix the refrigerator door handle. Did that. Went back to a bakery where I'd had a lot of panic some months ago, handled that without panic. Walked through a mall, small panic.

More cleaning and airport pickup

More cleaning. And a trip to pick up someone from the airport coming up shortly. Weather is pretty bad, so it's going to be a "fun" drive.

Later: yep, slip sliding the whole way there. Got there just in time. Driving back was a lot better until close to the house.

50 minutes of cleaning

A lot less dusty. Probably going to need the same effort again tomorrow to get things properly clean. Just in time to be snowed in.

30 minutes of (slow) cleaning

Well, a productive day. I cleaned for 30 minutes, and was productive on some other things. I still need to work on getting myself out of the house and seeing people though. I meant to work on it since the last time I saw my therapist, but I have not done so great with that. Need to really make the effort. House looks cleaner though, so I've got that in the win column.

Ping pong

Played for about 20 minutes. I was definitely not as good as the guy I was playing against. I think he was bored :-) . But I did work up some sweat. Tired after. My body's not used to exercise. The range of motion from the ping pong exacerbated my shoulder problem, which triggers my panic because it hurts across the ribcage to the sternum. As a result my afternoon and evening was not so great. My next doctor appointment will be looking at that shoulder problem.

Up and running

Had my acupuncture yesterday. Actually got more relaxed and had energy after that. Every time I go when I'm lying there with the needles in my my mind wanders around for an hour. I'm always kind of nervous at the beginning, part of having needles stuck in you I guess. Sometimes it hurts a bit, but it quickly goes away unless they're inserted deep, and then it feels like pressure, not pain. The acupuncturist ended the session with a few minutes of cupping, which is where they attach glass cups to your back via suction. It feels quite strange, like applying pressure across the whole back.

Short walk, some cleaning

Did a short walk, and did some cleaning in the house. Also went out and got a big chai latte. Didn't realize that had almost as much caffeine as a mocha cappuccino.

Can't say I am really feeling great today. I fell asleep last night with the lights on. The panic effects from yesterdays long walk lasted into the night.

Goal reached

I walked to the end of my street and back today, which is about a 20 minute walk, and has been my goal for some time. Like the scene in Gattaca where the one brother explains that he can swim that far because he doesn't save anything for swimming back, I just kept going once I'd reached my distance goal. Started getting some panic about 1/2 the way back, but slowed down the walking a bit and made it.

Ping pong

Kicked myself out for 15 minutes of ping pong. Worked up some sweat. Feel better about myself after being done with it. Today being sunny helps too. Yesterday was very dark and rainy.

New Year resolution

Better mood!