Rough Day

I got plenty of sleep but work was a madhouse of activity today. I am trying to keep focused on my being new and that some mistakes are inevitable because of that because of my tendency to punish myself for mistakes. I keep trying to show initiative at work as well. I think the other guy who started at the same time as me is farther ahead, but a)who really knows, and b)it shouldn't matter as it's not a competition. In any case my manage assigned something specifically to me to take care of for him. I should look at that as a positive sign and not some sort of testing.

I am very glad to get home after work.

After working about a half hour late to get things finished up for the day I came home and had to call the IRS regarding my deceased father's taxes. Then the mortgage company for the house for my mom. Then the homeowners insurance company to get a quote for the house for my mom. Phew, that's a lot.

Putting this stuff down in the blog, there is a three day weekend coming up. I'm going a thing at a time right now though otherwise, so I won't be thinking about it until maybe when it starts.

Third week of work is over

This week training gave way to actual work, some supervised by a senior team member and some on my own. I got stuck on one thing and had to call in a senior, but I did feel a bit better than he got stuck by it too (it remains not fixed currently). I've settled in a bit and so far the feedback I've gotten has been positive. There is still good potential for me to take any failure too strongly, though I am trying to expect some mistakes as a new employee and trying not to be too hard on myself over them.

Outside of that I am buying a house for my mother to retire in. There's lots of paperwork even though she's already in the house in question and it's just a matter of purchasing it. She never owned a home, so I am happy to have her in a home she effectively owns.

Outside of those too things I am focused on keeping my energy up, as both things are draining. I am making sure I get to bed early. My walking levels are up as measured by my phone's pedometer. I'm not doing my intermittent fasting diet during this period, as the fast days leave me with no energy and I need the energy to focus on learning the new job and dealing with the house. I think I've gained some weight as my eating hasn't been the best. I need to get some healthier eating going.

First week of work is over

There were some struggles with, well, staying awake during training videos. From an anxiety standpoint it was a success. Today (Friday) I didn't even take a xanax, so I hopefully shouldn't have to take any going forward. This was at least partly due to knowing I wouldn't be doing any actual work, just training stuff. Next week is transitioning to actual work + training. My co-workers are ok I guess, it's a bit strange having co-workers in the next cube since my past few jobs all my co-workers have been located at other locations.

The work seems like it will be pretty straightforward once I learn how the do things the way the company wants them done. It's a short walk from where I park to my desk, which is good, and the commute is the shortest out of any job I've had.

I had to clean out a washing machine drain last week at my house. The kneeling in the small space made my back sore. It's still sore, getting better slowly. I need more stretching I guess.