Digging in the dirt

It's more than a Peter Gabriel lyric, it's what I spent 40 minutes doing yesterday to get a half completed landscaping project in place before it rains for a week. Yay for me for getting that much exercise, and for finishing the project. Afterwards I felt very tired, 40 minutes of shoveling dirt and placing large paving stones. Quite beat today as well. I was too worn out to get to sleep easy and to sleep well.

With all that I started getting some panic driving to work. I did a very good job of cutting it off by realizing what my body was doing. I'm still beat from yesterday/last night though, well see about having enough energy for ping pong tonight.

Tomorrow will mark three weeks without needing a nap. I feel like I could use one today, I think I deserve one after yesterday, but I also don't want to since I think i still need to work on not napping to ingrain that. There was a Greek philosopher that said something lime actions lead to habits, habits lead to destinies or something lime that. I think there were a few more in between steps. Anyway I still feel like not napping is an action, so it needs further reinforcement.

Retraining the brain part 2

I've forced myself into more exercise this week, with 20-30 minutes of digging in the garden Monday and Tuesday, and 45(!) minutes of good sweaty ping pong. By digging in the garden I mean actual digging, trying to remove all the grass that's grown out over the sidewalk in a thick mat over 6-8 inches from the edge of the sidewalk. Hopefully trimmed back it will look nicer. Also I want to put brick along the edge of the walkway from the driveway to the front door for a similar reason. Not nearly done with the walkway, and maybe half done with the sidewalk, but not pushing myself to do everything at once and overwhelm myself. Have to shower after the gardening from working up a sweat digging. Four consecutive days of 20+ minutes of excercise. Yesterday I took a 15 minute lunch walk and played hard at ping pong for another 45, quite proud of myself for that. Need to keep all this up.

Have not napped durin the day for two weeks now. Yesterday I had what most people would say was normal energy level. First time in I don't know how long for me. I've done two things over the past two weeks, I stopped eating cereal for breakfast (it was a healthy cereal, not sugary stuff), and switched to yogurt and a piece of fruit, with a yogurt/fruit/granola parfait from the work cafeteria for a morning snack. And this week I added the additional excercise.

Spoke with my boss, he's happy with how I'm doing at work. He doesn't know about the depression, but he does know I was having a lot of personal stress about 6 months ago.

Retraining the brain

No naps for a week.