Working the platitudes

Working hard on internalizing the platitudes of "it's ok to be tired, anyone would be stressed by this". Had to take a nap after a high anxiety morning, meeting someone new in someplace new to me (Definitely enjoyable though.). After that a trip to the computer store for a part for my computer, since the computer died. At least it was just a power issue and Windows remained fine. Disconnecting the power supply from all the internal bits and connecting the new one was a pain, tight working conditions and I didn't know for sure if it would work or not. Fortunately it did.

Made it through week 2

Better than week one. I did some work this week, there was a delay in getting me set up in their computer systems, so I couldn't access anything I needed to until yesterday.

Made it through first day

Spent pretty much most of the morning in panic attack mode, trying not to show it while being dragged around to meet people, get keycards etc. Had a smaller attack at one point. Afternoon was better as I only had one thing scheduled and so was able to sit at my desk and just try to read stuff.

No quitting.

new job

I was expecting to be asked to start next week. Instead they just called and want me to start tomorrow. Going to do some meditation tonight and get to bed early. Not sure how I'm going to handle a new job + divorce. Will do my best.

All boxed up.

Earlier this week I'd been managing to get by despite not sleeping well. It caught up to me today and I slept in fits until noon. Seeing things all boxed up for shipment hit me. Working hard on the stuff from the therapist.