20 minute walk

Yay for me. It was unseasonably warm today, so I got out and walked through the melting snow and ice.

Out early

I put my hobby project out for publishing yesterday. And today was up early and went out for some pancakes for breakfast. Tastes good, didn't feel panicky at the restaurant. A positive for me.

Art Museum

I went the the art museum today and wandered through their new exhibition. I did not stay very long, it was not on something I'm interested in. But I did it to get myself out of the house. I did not have a panic attack, but it was something that still involved some kicking myself to do. Still having to kick myself to do stuff, but less kicking.

Did get a hold of my family later yesterday to wish everyone a happy Christmas. Nothing much for today, but did find a pretty complete set of old sci-fi radio shows to listen to, cool.

Christmas

Listening to old radio broadcasts from the 50's. Have some brownies I made yesterday. Called my family but they were out of the house.

Positive day

I kicked myself into more energy last night. Today I feel like I had a positive day. Got out and got coffee, including waiting in line. Felt productive for my hobby project (still finding errors...). Want to make sure I get in a post today.

Slow today

Did not have it today. Got hopefully the last of things wrapped up for my hobby project. But really tired. Got called by a recruiter for an interview though. Will go for that once it's arranged provided the company wants to interview me.

Considering

Another night of waking up between 3-5am. Too much caffeine I think. Finally got back to sleep. Still I think I had better energy today than I expected given my lack of sleep. But quite tired by 5pm.

Another success

It was a quite a go to get myself up and out, but I took a giant carboard box to the dumpster and went out and did a bit of Christmas shopping.

Edit: 10pm and still waiting for that 2pm coffee to wear off.

Already a success

Did my grocery shopping, followed by going right back out and dropping recycling and taking care of banking stuff (at two banks, only drive through but still). Got laundry in and making brownies. Over an hour of stuff in one go.

Good day

I was tired this morning, but got energy from my therapist appointment. Took a short nap after lunch because I was relaxed as opposed to being exhausted. I had an acupuncture session this afternoon. Felt good after that too.

Up at 3

Thanks to the cat chasing invisible mice. My bum shoulder is acting up. It's going to get x-rayed when I have my followup with my doctor next month.

Took at nap late morning. Had energy in the afternoon but tired now at dinnertime. Cat's going in the other room from now on while I sleep, or at least for awhile. That was twice this week. That and the bad snowstorm made this a not very great week. The Prozac has yet to kick in, or at least I can't really tell yet.

Interview today

Yesterday was no good. I woke up around 3, didn't fall back asleep until 5, up again at 6 and finally 7. Upset stomach all day from lack of sleep. The giant winter storm didn't help with my sleeping or my mood either. Stayed tired even though I took a nap.

Today I have a job interview this afternoon. Across town and with no good way to get there. Have to drive city streets through bad parts of town or go far out of my way. Realizing I'd have to do that every day if I got the job I'm not sure I want it.

darn cat

Decided 6am was crazy hour. I think I climbed out of bed sometime around 7. Tired.

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Met with my therapist yesterday. I was feeling better yesterday than when I last met with him. Also did acupuncture. Last time I had the acupuncture I felt like I had more energy the following couple of days. I don't know about today, but I slept like a rock yesterday. We're supposed to get a big snowstorm tomorrow, so I went and did some grocery shopping. I've got laundry in as well so I'll have some clean socks. Mostly still fixing bugs in my hobby project, got a good section done. I think I could use a nap though.

Cavs are on the radio tonight.

Not much to say today

Most of my day I spent fixing things for my hobby project. It's good to see things working properly when they weren't. I got my exercise shoveling snow.

victory!

I drove over to see my primary care physician at his hospital office, which meant driving through terrible snow, getting a long walk from the parking to the offices (and his offices were in a new location, so there was that too), waiting for over an hour, and dealing with the panic of it all.

30 minutes of (slow) cleaning

The assistant for my primary care physician called today, and I'm getting on on a cancellation tomorrow. That's good. Almost assuredly I'll get put back on fluoxetine. I do have to meet him at the main hospital campus in a busy part, his new office is near the gift shop apparently, and it's fairly far from the parking. I'll get my daily walking just from that. Dealing with that will be a challenge.  I'm sure I'll feel good when it's over and I'm back in the car driving home.

Today I did the post office again after lunch. Ran out of stamps or couldn't find the others. Got a coffee on the way back as I was barely awake. Thankfully there was no line and I was in and out. A couple of hours later the coffee wore off and I felt so exhausted. Did not let myself sleep though.

Further testing of my hobby project has turned up quite a number of embarrassing errors that should have been caught before. While nothing was broken, there turned out to be many consistency errors. Made me feel down because I have 4-5 people testing this and I said it was a version that was all polished up and ready to go. I did not want to do further testing, it's time consuming and I'm tired of looking at my stuff. Obviously I'm going to have to run though things again though.

I'm still tired all the time. But I am trending towards more normal sleeping hours for the past few days it seems. Went to bed around 10:45 last night, got up around 7:30.

Mastery:
I spent a full 30 minutes on house cleaning tonight. Vacuumed in a couple of rooms, and cleaned some in the bathroom, kitchen and computer room. I am feeling positive about that. I was not feeling positive about cleaning stuff when I started, but forced myself to start it. Did the bathroom sink first, it's small, and it got me rolling enough to do the kitchen sink, also small.

Pleasure:
Cavs basketball on the radio. They need to start winning some and not losing by 20 points every game. They don't have to win all the time, but it's not fun if they're not competitive.

exercising again

11 minutes of Wii exercise. Also much less tired today than yesterday. I was up early, around 7am, despite not going to be until around 11pm, though I was exhausted when I climbed into bed. For my pleasure today I went out this morning at got myself a couple of donuts. They're always yummy, can't have them too much though. Not getting enough exercise for that.

Where I live is headed for plenty of snow overnight apparently.

Got my excercise

Made sure to get my exercise this morning, 12 minutes. We've had snow much of the day.

Goal: clean the bathroom (done).

Pleasure: Browns on the radio. Cavs on the radio.

Browns won, which was good. They didn't play too well but squeaked it out. Cavs are headed for defeat again.

I'm more tired than yesterday. Still going though. Uploaded a Release Candidate of my hobby project. It's complete, I know of no bugs with it, just needs one last runthrough by someone other than me before I can say it's a 1.0 version. With the RC out, I hope it will be a weight off my shoulders.

Saturday

I had more energy today than I have recently. I was actually up and out of bed at 6:30, and went for pancakes at 7. Did groceries when the place was full. Pretty tired now though.

Acupuncture

I went for an acupuncture session today. I found the acupuncturist because she works with a local hospital. I've never tried it before, but if it helps...

Never got going yesterday

I was tired all day yesterday. I still got out and did a few things, took some stuff to the post office that had to go out yesterday. Exhausted though, did not have a coffee. Once I finally lay down in the evening I couldn't fall asleep despite being so tired. I finally did though after maybe 45 minutes of tossing around.

For goal stuff: I did the post office stuff, which I didn't know would have to go out yesterday until 3:30pm. Waited in line at the takeout place for dinner despite my exhaustion. Also finished the last writing bits for my hobby project.

Pleasure stuff:

Today: More energy this morning than yesterday.

Goal stuff: I have some banking to do. Groceries as well, all out of yogurt and bananas.

Pleasure: Cavs vs Heat tonight. Lebron returns.

Banking done. Groceries done. Another unexpected post office trip done. Pet store trip done.