I hate it when I just sleep

I climbed into bed last night around 8:30. Didn't really sleep until near midnight though, was just kind of 3/4 asleep, the consequence of two frappuchinos yesterday to keep me going at work. Woke up around 9 this morning, ate some cereal, and back into bed until 1pm. I'm still exhausted.

I was supposed to have a doctors appointment for my left shoulder, which makes a loud popping noise if I move it a certain way, on Thursday but you read that days blog entry probably. Pop it enough (which I make it do under stress) and I can feel sore across my upper left ribcage to my sternum. I'm sure soreness in that area helps a lot with the way I'm feeling.... It's obvious I have a torn labrum or rotator cuff or something like that. I've had this for years, but with the depression I've never been able to get myself to gt it treated.

Vomiting from stress.

Vomiting from stress. wonderful. Probably going to take more time off work.

Arghh work stress

Already having a lot of stress from work, one of my cats made something crash in the middle of the night and jumping me out of bed. I felt like my heart skipped a few beats.

Three day weekend three day weekend three day weekend. Going to try to work from home today as well. I had a few anxiety attacks last week, but was doing a bit better earlier this week since I was making myself get out for some short walks. Today if I have to go to work I feel like I'll have an anxiety attack for sure, just because I'm so tired.